I could Sing of your Love Forever

2011-02-14T23:28:00.001+08:00

no rest like in the presence of God :)

2010-09-19T15:19:00.003+08:00

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket---safe, dark, motionless, airless---it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable...The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers...of love is Hell. (C.S Lewis, The Four Loves)

2010-07-26T16:51:00.002+08:00

for the 1st time in the year 2010, i decided to write an entry to my blog and hope that randomly people will still drop by and see this :)

still holidaying...which means i've got a lot of time to do what i want to do...

been on a disney cartoon movie craze ever since i saw that youtube has all these disney shows a few days ago... :)

watched beauty and the beast this afternoon and realise that it's more than just a pretty girl and a hideous beast...it's about looking beyond the appearances and finding beauty from within... :)

there was the beast with a hideous face, so hideous that belle was shocked when she saw him...but he was gentle and understanding...

another guy by the name of gaston...he had a pretty face and a strong physique that made the entire province look up to him, but he was pushy, arrogant and inconsiderate...

guess who belle chose? she fell in love with the beast despite his physical appearance...

everyone hopes for a prince charming...but belle knew she wanted more than just a pretty face...cool character! :)

2009-12-11T11:29:00.003+08:00

random tot...
change from someone who steals to someone who doesn't...obviously, that is change for the worse...
how abt subtle change?...like change from having no opinions most of the time to having more opinions most of the time...how can one determine if this is change for the better or for the worse?...

2009-12-03T15:36:00.003+08:00

the same song...
listen to it on the bus with your eyes opened, free to be distracted by the many things that you may see as you gaze of the window...the song may be no more than a background music...
listen to it when you're in your room where it's quiet, with nothing on your mind except to listen intently to the song...the song can minister to you...
watch the live worship session on youtube intently...with the song playing and the image of the stage ministers worshipping God with their voices, their hands, their playing of instruments...the song can minister to you even more and can even draw your attention to God...
was watching the video for "with everything" on youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSCE8uLuTJY...super ministered by it coz the musicians and singers really demonstrated how much they understand the song and that every line that they sing, they understand and sang it with all sincerity; and every note, every string plucked is done with so much meaning...
i thought it had something to do with the arrangement of the song...but i realise that the arrangement is totally the same as the mp3, the mp3 that i had listened to on my way home but fell asleep listening to it...
visual and audio...that's the power of stage ministry in its role of drawing people to the place of worship and to worship God...such a privilege...:)
God, i really pray that You will use me to minister

2009-11-11T01:22:00.001+08:00

lim dai xuan: i'm planning my study timetable..[1:16:08 AM]
lim dai xuan: realise tt i really don have a lot of time..[1:16:09 AM]
lim dai xuan: hee..[1:16:18 AM]

Erina: oh no.[1:16:20 AM]
Erina: thn how?[1:16:57 AM]

lim dai xuan: never mind la..[1:17:02 AM]
lim dai xuan: juz try my best n c how lor..[1:17:03 AM]
lim dai xuan: hee..[1:17:12 AM]
lim dai xuan: no other alternatives also ah..[1:17:36 AM]

Erina: uh haha okay[1:17:41 AM]
Erina: wah i peifu[1:17:42 AM]
Erina: u[1:17:54 AM]
Erina: can stil "hee.."[1:19:53 AM]

lim dai xuan: no la..[1:19:57 AM] l
im dai xuan: i'll sometimes panic a little..[1:20:08 AM]

Erina: but u still hee..[1:20:09 AM]

lim dai xuan: but den i'll tell myself, this is no time to panick..[1:20:09 AM]

Erina: lol[1:20:10 AM]

lim dai xuan: move on..[1:20:19 AM]

Erina: hee.. shld be like a[1:20:29 AM]
Erina: a word[1:20:37 AM]
Erina: that represent ur prayer to God[1:20:43 AM]

lim dai xuan: hee..[1:20:45 AM]
lim dai xuan: so funny..[1:20:52 AM]

Erina: lik whn u dam panic and all[1:20:55 AM]
Erina: u jus hee[1:20:56 AM] Erina: =[1:21:05 AM]

lim dai xuan: like some magic code la..[1:21:07 AM]

Erina: pray to God tht u dam anxious ask him let u not so anxious[1:21:07 AM]

Erina: hahahhaha[1:21:09 AM] Erina: yeah![1:21:11 AM] Erina: its cool what[1:21:15 AM] lim dai xuan: tt's creative..[1:21:17 AM] lim dai xuan: yes yes..[1:21:20 AM] lim dai xuan: very cool ah..[1:21:22 AM] lim dai xuan: hee..

heeheeheehee :)

2009-10-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

had my 21st birthday party today! :)
so happy that it is over!...finally can concentrate on my school work le...:)
hee...if u know shai, u will know that party isn't really shai's kind of thing...
so, many pple wondered why did i want to hold a party though i don really like it...

actually, initially, i was too lazy to plan and i din want pple to come for the party and just spend the 2 hours there just mingling with the people they might be seeing every wk in school or in church...but den, God challenged me to sing for my parents during the party coz it was a good chance for me to sing to them since they kept complaining about how i always sing in church but never sing for them...hee...hope that they were touched...n now, shai really got to be a better daughter...need God's guidance in it...n please keep me accountable...:)

sooooooo...actually the party was more for my friends in school to know wat i'm always doing in church (since they know my commitments in church are quite high)...n tt came in when my friends performed for me...coz then it gave me a platform for me to point out the certain pple i hang out with...though only pauline and tinghui were there (the rest went off early), i'm happy that i was able to share to them coz these r the pple who will actually wonder how come i spend so much time...yay!...so 1 objective met! :)

hee...thank kew all for coming...seriously, i really appreciate that u all make time for this coz though i think the venue is not the most convenient place and this is not exactly the best timing to hold a party since many deadlines to meet, u all still chose to set aside time for this...:)

yihui and esther, thank kew so much for being willing to take time out to practise so that u can perform for me...saw u all staying back after cg to practise instead of gg to fellowship...:)
florence and reginaaaaa, thank kew for being so courageous to take up this last min dedication of the song "thousand miles" for me...:)
yaoguo, though u r piano pro, still need to practise de...so thank kew for taking time out to practise even in the midst of preparing for musicians training as well as school work :)
shannnnnnnn...u like in every performance!...hee...seriously super touched by ur acts of service to me...shan's the organiser, shan's the keyboardist, shan's the singer, shan's in cleaning up and clearing stuffs...shan's in everything...hee...thank kew so much shan...:)

all in all, the party was considered a success coz i think pple have fun and pple who are concerned or interested in wat i do in church got a glimpse of it as well...n i even got a surprise tt zhou zhong is a lyricist and she works with a composer and so next time, opportunity that we can work together!...so cool!!!! :)
thank kew God for everything that You've done in this party and in pple's hearts...:)

2009-10-22T08:44:00.002+08:00

chanced upon this song...
hee...nice lyrics...sing it in faith! :)

Lord reign in me by Brenton Brown

Over all the earth
You reign on high
Every mountain stream
Every sunset sky
But my one request
Lord my only aim
Is that You’d reign in me again

Chorus:
Lord reign in me
Reign in Your power
Over all my dreams
In my darkest hour
You are the Lord
Of all I am
So won’t You reign in me again

Over every thought
Over every word
May my life reflect
The beauty of my Lord
‘Cause You mean more to me
Than any earthly thing
So won’t You reign in me again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZzEkhTwiODc&feature=related

2009-09-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

it's been super long since i blog le...lazyyyyyyyy...hee...
but yest, i had a revelation about the song "promises"...so amazing that i have to blog it down! :)
the lyrics goes "i surrender my life to Your ways; i have learnt wat it means to obey"...after i sang these 2 lines, i couldn't help but stop to ask myself, "really meh?"
so for the rest of the song, i don't dare to sing anymore...coz i simply can't sing wat i don mean...n if i mean wat i sing, isn't it the same as making the dangerous prayer of "God, use me more"?...muz really stop n think...
the song went on to the bridge that goes "singing all Your promises won't let go of me"...talking about God's promises coming to past...tt's much easier to sing, isn't it?...but wait!...the song totally links...coz in order that God's promises come to past, we got to surrender and obey...and when we surrender and obey, God's promises come to past...that encourages us to want to surrender even more and obey even more which leads us back to God's promises coming to past...so this is a cycle...
is it possible for us to really come to a point whereby we can surrender fully and willingly?...possible but really difficult...probably will take a long time...so does it mean till we can say for sure that we're ready to surrender everything den we can sing?...of course not...meanwhile, we juz got to sing by faith and by the decision we make to want to surrender and obey...difficult...but shai will try...:)

2009-07-27T02:07:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6V0rgrt1nTM

Everything by Tim Hughes

the lyrics r simple but super sweet! :)

2009-07-21T01:36:00.003+08:00

what do you do when things don't seem to go the way you expect them to?
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stop complaining.
look at what you've got in your hands.
give your best with what has been given.
PRAY.
then,
when the seemingly out of place situation is over,
sit back, reflect and see what brilliant things God has done.

Trust in the LORD with all your heartand lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him,and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV) :)

2009-07-06T17:50:00.002+08:00

korea trip :)

70% of korea's land is filled with mountains...as such, everywhere we go, there will always be mountains as the background...
1st day, we were really fascinated by the scenery we see...2nd day, the excitement went down a little...n by the last day, what was left was "don't you think korea's scenery is always the same?"
what 1st fascinated us was taken for granted after a mere span of 9 days...

God's presence is like the presence of those mountains...
1st day we receive Him and experience His presence, we get really fascinated and excited...but as time goes by, what happens?...
has ur excitement died down?...
let's not take God's presence for granted...n renew our passion for Christ daily...:)

2009-06-16T12:22:00.001+08:00

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,I will be joyful in God my Savior.
Habakkuk 3:17-18 (NIV)

though shai has no voice
and she cannot sing or even talk,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Saviour :)

2009-06-09T23:43:00.002+08:00

had vocals retreat today! :)
xiang led worship. samuel played the guitar. qianjin gave teaching. kim, star, meng, pete n fongyee led games.
hee...all of them did a great job!...*clap clap clap*

1 thing i got back from the teaching is this concept of "free labour"...
quoting from qianjin...
"there r 2 ways we can use our gifts - 1 is to use it for God, another is to use it for urself."
a lot of times when we do things in the name of "to God be the glory"...but deep down in our hearts, is it really really for God's glory?...
"if we use the gifts for our own glory, then we're providing free labour for God coz at the end of the day, when u go heaven, u'll see that God kept no records of wat u've done 'in the name of His glory'"...to me, tt isn't very worth it...

Matthew 6:5 (New International Version)
Prayer
5"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full.
not that we cannot pray in public...but that when we pray in public, are we really communicating with our dear God or are we merely acting spiritual?...
same issue...for God or for urself?

2009-05-29T14:09:00.002+08:00

28th may '09 thursday

realise the importance of efficient discipleship today...shai better be faithful in meeting up with her singers to train them...coz with effective discipleship comes a blossoming ministry...n i pray that singers ministry will blossom...:)

2009-05-29T14:01:00.003+08:00

27th may '09 wednesday

shai n xiang went ecp to cycle!...n we cycled for 3.5 hrs from ecp all e way to changi!...cycle till butt pain...n sunburnt...i look like a lobster now...hee...

in e journey, we went thru lots of upslopes and downslopes...
heard of e saying that goes "after every upslope is a downslope"?...
how abt flipping it over and make it "after every downslope, dere's a downslope"?
while gg on a downslope, do we cruise through it n juz enjoy e breeze or do we paddle as much as possible so that we can cruise thru the tough journey of gg upslope?

when things r gg well in life, it might b a cruising period...but if life only consists of cruising, won't it b very boring?...dere'll b no growth needed...n obviously, our dear heavenly Father won't want our maturity to remain status quo...so, after every cruising period, dere'll surely b a tough period...since we already know, y not spend the cruising period preparing urself for the next tedious upslope journey? :)

hee...shai's having holidays now...seemingly cruising...but i know the reopening of school term will announce the beginning of another tedious upslope...so shall use this holiday to prepare myself...:)

2009-05-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

taught regina how to sing the tenor part of the song "open up the gates"...hee...n she learnt really fast...God, i pray that You'll help her rmb the parts and continue to be with her as she practises...in Jesus's name, amen...:)

hee...been spending my holiday going out with pple, taking my own sweet time to tidy and clean up my room, watching the perfect cut (which is a super nice show!...makes me think of some issues of life...hee...) etc etc etc...hee...ever since the start of this holiday, i've been asking myself "how to make this holiday really fruitful?"...till now, i've not found an answer yet...i'm quite free, now that it's school holidays...yet i don feel that i'm wasting my time...it's as though i'm going on a trip to widen my perspective to life and to relax and enjoy...hee...wfl is coming real soon...next up is camp!...looking forward to learning more of the Word and meeting God...:)

2009-05-04T01:00:00.002+08:00

hee...shai's really happy today!...coz xiang called me...to chat eh!!!
hee...so cool!!!...so loved...thank kew xiang...:)

2009-04-29T12:43:00.002+08:00

hee...haven't blogged for a while...n guess wat i saw when i was at e sign-in page?..."create a new blog--it's fast and easy"...so true...to create something is fast and easy, often at e spur of a moment...but to be faithful to it takes more than just a spur of the moment...
to create us is a easy feat to our Almighty God...but to be faithful in taking care of us is definitely not an easy feat...yet God has been the most faithful!...:)

this exam period...i was exceptionally stressed...coz out of 5 modules, i'm not confident of 4!...n my 2 most inconfident papers were e 1st to b tested ( = less time to study)...hence, the feeling of cui-ness n helplessness...
but God really knows me inside out!
usually, during exam period will be the time when shai will be staying at home with her notes...n den for the entire 2 wks, juz be very much into studying n nth else...as though i'm in an isolated world...but this time round, God sent many different pple...
when i was sian, xiang dropped me a msg...simple jiayou msg...but i was really blessed coz it tells me that i'm rmbed...molly gave me a my melody pin and butter cookies...hee...n xuan shared a story abt how God helped her...truly, friendship in church goes beyond the structure...:)
n of course, not to forget the exam kits that jerel, peter, jiayi n kaiwen gave...helps me get rid of my hunger...:)
n my shepherd who really keep to praying for n msging me b4 my every paper...hee...really amazed by her...coz i know if it was me, as much as i want to bless my sheep, i'll still juz rmb to msg for the 1st paper n last paper...hee...so thank kew jiali! :)
n many many more...juz want to say...i really feel very blessed in this exam time!...thank kew God! :)

2009-04-07T00:17:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WYK6TxWX7s&feature=related

Desert Song by hillsong

it's awesome!
go watch this if u r stressed or downcast or even feeling ok...i'm sure u'll b blessed! :)

2009-04-01T09:00:00.002+08:00

from the book "A Love Worth Giving"...kindness refers chiefly to an act of grace...it also refers to a deed or person who is useful, serviceable, adapted to its purpose...

Many a times, God has been very kind as to turn a bad situation around, esp when the bad situation is a consequence of our own carelessness or lack of preparation...it's something we don deserve...yet, only God is kind enough to help us out...sooooo, perhaps as we share testimonies abt such "God saved my day" situations, don just thank God for e saving action...but thank God for His ever-present kindness...:)

for the kindness You've been showing to me, cheers to You! :)

2009-03-23T20:50:00.002+08:00

had my last mid-term paper today...it is my most feared paper coz it's a module that i know 1/3 of the class can understand very well and do tutorial qns very easily when i have to spend long hours and still only manage to do 2 out of 6 tutorial qns...

hee...din manage to finish studying...was feeling really worried on sat when i was only 3/8 done...this worrying feeling kept on even till sunday...hee...it has been very long since i felt this anxious for my paper...den God did a miraculous thing that really cheered me up and assured me that He is with me...:)

i was taking bus 95 on my way to tutorial...was feeling very sian that i have to go for tutorial though i haven't finish studying for my test at 4p.m...den God placed this song in my head..."i set my mind on You Lord, i choose You everytime...focus my eyes on You Lord and dedicate my life"...n den i felt an inner peace that i knew only God could give...:)

in e end, guess wat?...God helped me in my test...usu my revision style is i'll finish studying my lecture notes b4 i revise my tutorials...but this time round, somehow it juz felt very natural to use the tutorial qns to reiterate wat i learn in the lecture notes...if i had not done that, i think i wouldn't have been able to do 2 qns from my test paper today!...praise God!!!...You are really super zai! :)

2009-03-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

shai's feeling the stress already!
i can't believe how i'm feeling right now...has getting good results become too impt?...have i been slacking too much?
fri ma3111 complex analysis test!...i'm only half-done...
fri-sunday take-home soci essay...i've only done 3 out of about 10 chapters of readings...

just when i was so stressed...i read this from Rick Warren...
"Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life.
No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on.
And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for.
You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems.
If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness,"which is my problem, my issues, my pain." But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others."

i want to brave this wk together with my God n emerge victorious! :)

2009-03-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

being a leader is more den juz carrying out the written responsibilities...it's also about inspiring pple to carry on in doing God's will even when things may not seem to be gg the right way...

which means, even when the whole team is complaining or whining, u r not supposed to go w the flow!...take a moment, breath, wait upon the Lord n draw strength n joy from Him...:)

2009-03-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

hee...here's a slightly overdue testimony...but i think i should still share it anyway...:)

hee...last sat...my team was on duty..."You lifted me out" n "assuredly Yours" were 2 songs tt made me really stressed n worried abt e pnw session tt sat...coz they were really high for all e singers on duty...esp e upkey for assuredly Yours...

during prayer meeting, God spoke to me...He said, "this is not a problem, but a miracle in making"...when God spoke, i realised how little faith i have in God that no matter wat, He can turn e situation around...mayb not in e way we expect (like suddenly can hit e notes effortlessly)...but still, God is ever in control...:)

hee...so during e 2min break, i told e singers wat God told me...n i told them to juz whack e high notes...even if we sing out of tune, God can still turn e situation around as long as we believe n we try our best...with this, guess wat?...hee...we din sing in tune for e upkey...but e spirit was dere...e spirit of juz anyhow whack n juz trust tt God is in e picture...in e end, i believe pple still met God...during altar call, this gal came down crying really hard...i knew tt God muz have touched her...hee...n this was despite our "work-in-progress" singing...God, You are really amazing! :)

n...singers, i'm really proud of all of u! :)

2009-02-20T11:24:00.002+08:00

LONDON - A BRASH British reality show star whose ups and downs captivated the nation is approaching her death the same way she has lived - on television.
Dying of cervical cancer that has spread to her liver and bowels, 27-year-old Jade Goody sees no reason to turn the cameras off now.

Bald and pale from chemotherapy, pictures of Goody have since been daily fodder in the British press. She says the publicity and profits made from selling her story will help her sons, 4-year-old Freddie and 5-year-old Bobby Jack, and raise awareness of cervical cancer.

do you agree with wat she's doing? do you think she's doing it for her own fame or is it really to accumulate enough money to see her 2 kids throught good education till they can support themselves after their mother dies?

regarding the things that we do, there are bound to be many differing opinions. some good, some not so pleasant. so the point really is not about getting opinions from people, but about how we decide to keep to wat we believe in doing regardless of whether more people supports you or not.

only 1 life to live. live it being bothered by wat other pple say or live it by following the dreams that you set out to achieve? make a choice! :)

2009-02-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

At the Jordon River, had Joshua lose the faith in God that He will fulfill His promise of giving the Israelites the promise land, the river would not have "parted" and the Israelites would have been stucked at something less den God's ideal for them. It was only when the 4 priests who were carrying the Ark of the Covenant step into the water that the river "parted".

In the book "Called to be God's leader", the author wrote this, "the reason more people do not see Jordon Rivers parting in their lives and ministries is because they waver at the riverbank." Sometimes, we see unparted waters b4 us and see it as a closed door and hence, a sign that what we are doing is not in God's plan. What if, that's God's way of stretching us? He wants us to 1st step into the water b4 He performs the miracles.

So, next time, when u r facing a Jordon River, pray and ask God if it's really a closed door and so you shouldn't continue; or we should hang on to it and juz trust and depend on Him. :)

hee...went to watch the curious case of benjamin buttons w florence, star n regina...hee...it's such a nice show!...1 line i rmb from it is "you will come to lose people whom you love. otherwise, how would u know that u'll miss them?" (paraphrased) i guess then the question shouldn't b will i lose some1 i love...but how am i to treasure more of the people around me?...

2009-02-04T10:24:00.001+08:00

The possibility of defeat never crossed Joshua's mind

as long as he followed God's will.

shai needs to learn to trust in the sovereignity of the Lord her God and not lean on her own limited uman understanding.

only then can she obey wholeheartedly, and thus be able to be an unclogged vessel for God's work.

trust and obey

for there's no other way

to be happy in Jesus

but to trust and obey

2009-01-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

3rd wk of school...feeling a bit disoriented after e cny holidays that came so fast n went even faster...
went for my 1st soci tutorial...goodness, i think i got to react faster n b less afraid to speak up...coz everytime i tot of sth to say n by e time i decided that i want to say, some1 else will say it e very next moment...><
i din read up my notes b4 i go ma3201 lecture today...n i'm super sure tt i won't b able to understand 75% of e lecture if i din read up...thank God He provided e blur me a way out...coz my ma2216 lecture b4 e ma3201 lecture got cancelled...means i have extra 2 hrs to revise! :) in e end, e ma3201 lecture was really enjoyable coz i understood most of it n it was really interesting hearing the teacher link up concepts we've come across b4 w e new concepts we r to learn! :)

2009-01-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

take me, break me, mould me n use me...
total surrender to God...
be willing to b broken coz after tt, God can mould me into a shai who is a great testimony to His grace n power :)

An Answered Prayer

2009-01-15T09:04:00.003+08:00

This was what I wrote in my journal on 2nd dec '08:
shai's prayer list:
1) tuition job (A or E maths for sec 3 & 4; of 30min bus ride from my house(at most 30min); pay $25/hr at least)

Guess what? I was offered a tuition job (with the help of yihui). It's E and A maths for sec 4. Though the girl lives in khatib, she's willing to meet me at ps dhoby gaut which is only 30min bus ride from my house. And she's paying me $200/month = $200/4 sessions = $200/8hrs = $25/hr!

so cool right?...hee...my God is indeed faithful! :)

2009-01-12T18:37:00.002+08:00

Today's my 1st day of school...yr2 sem2...every new sem is a new beginning...n this sem is a "save shai's cap!" sem...:)

hee...today was quite ok...i liked my ma3201 teacher...he's really very thoughtful towards his students and also very clear in his explanation...:)

ma2216 was already mind-boggling...it's all about probability...a topic that i never really liked...hee...but the lecturer is quite nice also...like his style of teaching...he will pick out some commonly confusing questions...then he'll present to us the question, lead us into solving the question andgive us time to think...and when we gave him the "i am lost" look, he always have a simpler scenario for us to picture so that we can eventually get his point...:)
hee...just pray that i'll get used to his accent soon :)

sooooooooooo...help shai by asking her abt her consistency in revision when u c her n rmb oki? :)
really want this sem to be my best cap sem...may God's name be glorified! :)

2009-01-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

felt like giving up...
but God spoke...
through it all...
He did not give up on me...
so shai is not going to give up too...
i'm going to try my best n do better n do my Daddy proud! :)

2009-01-07T09:43:00.003+08:00

This is yet another late entry. Shai should really be more diligent in updating her blog. :)

Anyway, last saturday, we had our very first choir in the year 2009. We had worship!
Through the worship, God spoke to His people, reminding us to serve not for anything esle but His glory; not with anything else but clean hands and pure hearts. It may sound cliche. However, to achieve clean hands and pure hearts, we really got to work continuously and keep choosing the righteous and holy over the sinful and carnal.
God has spoken! So, we've got lots of work to do!

Choir jiayou! :)

Through this worship, I'm really convicted that worship is an important platform for God to speak to His people; to encourage the discouraged, to heal the hurt and to correct the uncorrected. It also amazes me how God is so willing to partnership with us in this work to help and heal the souls of people. :)

"You can't lead people to where you have not been to"
Shai needs to grow in her personal worship time with God and prayer life. All these resulting in greater intimacy with her Lord Jesus Christ. It's not going to be easy, especially when school is starting soon. But, I believe that with the help of my Almighty God, I can! :)

vocals retreat at sentosa

2008-12-31T10:20:00.002+08:00

God saved the day for shai again!

was given the task of planning for the entire retreat...n as usual (not tt i'm very proud of it), shai missed out on some details that are crucial...but thank God He sent ah gal to help me realise that though i've planned out the games to play together w my games comm pple, i've not planned the flow of the games n the chairing n everything!...

while planning the flow, i got stucked at some points, thinking that the flow is not very good...den God sent reginaaaaaaaa to help me...n coz of the game that regina suggested, she offered to meet me n my games comm earlier...so in e end, i got myself a very capable assistant!...think if regina wasn't dere in the morning to encourage me, i'd have panicked big time when i saw that the time is running like mad n we r behind time already!...:)

in the end, the retreat went well...n everybody had much fun!...really thank God for this blessing! :)

2008-12-25T11:53:00.002+08:00

you don't have to be a thinker to think...
you don't have to be outspoken to speak...
you don't have to be like someone else to shine...
all you need is to love God and love the people whom God loves...

was juz reminded of how every1 is made differently...we all have our own ways of touching pple's hearts...not tt anybody's way is better den e other...it's juz different...we can learn from each other...but ultimately, we still need to find our own style n not get lost in following others...:)

all in all, having a sincere heart is the most impt...:)

2008-12-22T10:08:00.003+08:00

it has been a long time since i've updated my blog...but here goes! :)

hee...want to affirm e choir pple...
thank kew for being so willing to serve and being so supportive n encouraging though my conducting wasn't clear...n also for really availing urselves to serving the Lord with e talents n giftings that has been given to each n every1 of u...:)
it has really been a joy teaching u all...the performance may have come to an end, but the fellowship doesn't stop here right?...hee...it was really heartwarming to c so many pple in 1 convo w everybody contributing to share...hee...n now we have such a complicated family tree tt i've lost track (somebody update me!)...only rmb got boonie mummy n daryl e ox...hee...n of course, kenny w his pink pants...:)

choir, let's jiayou to improve our singing n to really become as pro as the choirs in hillsong n israel newbreed oki?...i believe w faithfulness, God will bless n will help us to multiply this talent we have de...:) looking foward to singing w u all more! :)

shai is so blessed! :)

2008-11-17T00:11:00.002+08:00

hee...this wk has been a blessed 1...:)

God really showed me that He is in full control of every single detail and every single person's life through singing...
star was given a chance to sing the really high tenor parts for the worship songs for this wk's service coz qianjin couldn't sing...
God inspired me to share this particular teaching to regina and it spoke to her and gave her a new perspective in singing...
and also through Pastor Brenden's teaching-------in our body, 24 million cells are divided every second...if 1 cell goes wrong, it means cancer...this really means tt e fact tt we r alive is a miracle in itself!...
God is really such a great planner! :)

n i really want to thank God for my team!...hee...suddenly realise how blessed i m to have florence (living in pasir ris) n regina (living in boon lay) to b so willing to travel to my house for training coz they know i need to study...n though sometimes, i always end up sidetracking or i don really know wat to do, they still so willingly want to learn...:) n when i said i wanted to meet star up to go thru e parts tt he missed from practice, he said ok readily!...:) thank kew for being so willing to learn n give off ur very best to the kingdom of God!...hee...i'm sure God is gg to use all of us to minister to pple as we strive to give our best in e correct attitude! :)

n peter n ruizhen drove me home all e way from yishun so tt i can have more time to study...n they live in serangoon area u know?...hee...really feel so loved by this act of service! :)

2008-11-13T16:49:00.002+08:00

A day hemmed in prayer is less likely to unravel. :)

Heb 4:16: So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive His mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it.

hee...this is wat is on e card attached to the exam pack that peter blessed me w...:)
it reminded me to pray...that instead of being stucked at e stage of worrying, i should really be meditating on God's word n feeding upon God's strength...:)

2008-11-05T08:42:00.003+08:00

was reminded by my friend to have joy in watever i do...:)
including things tt r not directly linked to the things of God...:)

indeed, when one have joy in all tt he/she does, things become much more enjoyable n lighter to carry...n how to have joy?...seek the Lord n walk w Him...den it'll b 2 pple carrying the load...n trust me, much of the weight will be upon God's shoulders coz He loves us so much...:)

2008-11-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

God says: "I will be with you."

As I read about wat God told Joshua when He called him to take over the baton from Moses's hand to lead the Israelites into the promise land, it felt as though God was telling me. The feeling was exactly like how it felt when God 1st spoke to me through e song "through it all".

Joshua 1:9: Have I not commanded you? Be strong n courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."

shai's waiting for God to elaborate further...since in any case, the wait is inevitable coz God is never late nor early but is always on time...shai shall wait patiently for things to unfold at God's timing...:)

2008-10-31T09:46:00.002+08:00

was reading the book "Called to be God's leader---lessons from the life of Joshua"...

got reminded of how though we have a lot of things to handle in our lives, it should never validate how some times, we skip our QT...we always talk abt meditation as focusing our minds on God...so when can we meditate?...

here's wat the author says, "Meditation is focused concentration. It does not require a lonely ountaintop or a convoluted body position. Itdoes not call for a trance or a mystical chant. Biblical meditaion involves pondering on God's Word until He makes its full implication clear. It is staying in God's presence till God has helped you to understand wat His Word is saying to you."

particularly to leaders...
"the wisest thing a spiritual leader can do is to seek God's wisdon. Careful evaluation of God's Word is a must for the sake of everyone involved. It is the leader's responsibility to help their people understand God's promises and respond to His invitations."

besides, since most leaders r often tempted to exalt their own knowledge n wisdom n use them to solve problems, constant meditation of God's Word n talking to God will remind us of how little we r, n how God's wisdom n knowledge is so so vast as compared to ours...keeps us humble n thankful for who God is...:)

2008-10-30T20:43:00.003+08:00

something i learnt from the SE2221 module...hee...
interlocking pattern...

it is where grp of people each play a distinct melody in its timing, forming a composit melody as a whole picture...at any point in time, if anybody plays a bit too fast or a bit too slow, the whole picture will be gone...tt's y it's interlocking...:)

hee...similarly, in a team, everybody got to do his/her part to the best they know how...if not, it'll spoil the entire picture of unity n harmony...:)

sooooooooooooo...shai got to do the best tt she knows how even if it might b a bit beyond her...:)

2008-10-28T00:14:00.003+08:00

WhatWouldJesusDo

woke up feeling really tired...but dragged myself out of bed coz i know tt dere were lots of work waiting for me to clear...yet, my spirit was weak n 1 tt's grumpy...wanted to juz b sloppy in doing my work, not giving my best whenever n wherever possible...juz doing the bare minimum etc...

juz den, God reminded me..."What would Jesus do?"...

Jesus woke up early in the morning b4 daybreak to go up to the mountains to pray n spend time w God coz He knew tt once daybreak comes, He'll b really busy with His ministry...yet, He din complain...being a human with limitations of the flesh, He muz have felt tired too...yet, never was dere an account of "the complaining spirit of Jesus" found in the bible...He was always full of joy n love for pple...:)

shai wants to b more n more like Jesus...God, mould me into the kind of person i was meant to be...:)

2008-10-26T08:30:00.003+08:00

yest was freedom ess!...:)

shai did a song presentation on her 1st jazz piece--fly me to the moon...hee...it wasn't easy for me to sing tt song coz for 1, my rhythm sense is not very gd...2, my presentation style is very pop...so i had to practise practise and practise...yet during the final rehearsal on sat, i screwed up!...my rhythm was off...i din know how to follow the music n all...thank God dere was still time for another try...:)

hee...in the end, i managed to pull it off...hee...all glory to my dear God...it juz reminds me once again, tt as long as i do my best, God will surely bless...:)

P.S. sally galllllllllllllllllll...thank kew for coming to support me...hee...ur presence dere made a difference...:)
n xuannnnnnnnnnnnn n xianggggggggggggggg...thank kew for cheering for me n being so encouraging during my performance...really helped to calm my nerves a lot!...:)

hee...n shai's so happy tt reginaaaaaaaaaaaa's singing improved!...jiayou regina! :)

2008-10-22T16:48:00.002+08:00

oh man...if u happen to pass by, click on the following link to check out on this amazing singer!...how can any1 move their vocal chords n mouth so fast?!!!!...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXbXD2y_5ZY&feature=related

shai's amazed!!! :)

P.S. she's holding on to a hanky...hee...juz like me! :)

2008-10-21T00:12:00.003+08:00

hee...

want to thank everybody for celebrating my birthday!...:)

1st n foremost, i want to thank joyce mama!...hee...she was e 1st to celebrate my bday...treated me to delifrance breakfast (tt was e 1st time both of us ever eat tt)...:)
she even went e extra mile to tell shan wat i need for my birthday present...n helped my singers to "spy" on me...:)
really thank God for u, joyce mama!...u made my birthday really happy!...:)

thank my cg for e mp3!...it's pink n it looks totally like a toy!...sooooooooooooooooo cute!!!...n it has a rabbit casing tt carries it...tt is sooooooooooooooooooo cute too!...n the best thing is...they covered my eyes n brought me to a sit on an "airplane"...hee...u know tt kind of vehicle tt u'll sit on when u were a child whereby u'll drop in a 20 cents coin n it will start to move n hve music playing?...hee...tt's it!...it was so fun!...shai feels like a little kid...:)
n thanks for the cards...hee...i realise tt though my primary love language is not words...when it comes to bday, cards r more impt den gifts...i guess tt's also coz if u write card, means u really do spend time to sit down n think wat u want to encourage me with...hee...so it involves e time factor too! :)

hee...den comes the big big big surprise!!!...:) :) :)
my singers!!! :) florence, regina n winstar :)
hee...juz some background info...florence n winstar live in the other side of s'pore from me...n all of them had school the next day...
yettttttttttttttt...they came all the way to my house de void deck to celebrate for me!...:)
at 1st, all was nice n sweet n heartwarming...but after blowing the candles n making a wish, they said they want to blindfold me to give me a surprise on the gifts they have for me...n guess wat?...it wasn't some cute heartwarming gift...but a gift of being poured water mixed with powdery stuffs n having whip cream all over me...hee...n e winstar ah...keep spraying whip cream at me!...hee...in e end, they really gave me a lot of gifts...hee...
florence drew a my melody card for e 3 of them to write on...
regina made a my melody wand for me n also the pink necklace n earrings...
star bought me a white bangle...
hee...
thank kew for gg e extra mile to bless me in my birthday...really appreciate it a lot a lot...:)

hee...ameliaaaaaaaaaa sent me an email...my shepherd sent me a super cute e-card...jiayi sent me a super nice picture of a rainbow staircase...hee...shai's so happy :)

n ah gallllllllllllllll...hee...she's so funny...i spoilt her plan...
she wanted to be e last 1 to b on time to wish me happy birthday...hee...buttttttttttttt...i was brushing my teeth when she called at 11.57 (according to her hp de clock)...hee...so she was late!!!...hee...but really thank kew for making e effort to wait for e right time to come to wish me...hee...n she said God led her to buy a certain gift for me...hee...i'm so excited to c wat it is!!! :)

hee...God also gave me a present...He gave me enough space to dance n praise n worship Him on stage without having to care if i'm singing in tune or following the lead worshipper's cues n leading well...hee...from this, i learnt something...even w e mike, e God i'm worshipping is still the same...so i shouldn't b so stressed till i can't praise God e most tt i know how...coz God will take care of everything when i juz sing...:)

God, thank kew for making me the way i m...shai was made to sing...n this gift is for u Lord...use it to glorify Your Name...:)

Worshipping in truth and in spirit

2008-10-15T15:24:00.002+08:00

we always hear of pple using this phrase in teachings...but...wat does worshipping in truth and in spirit actually mean?...

hee...i asked veron tt time...n if i nv rmb wrongly, this is wat she told me...

the truth refers to the word of God...we learn abt who God is, how He deals with things and his character from the bible...consequently, worshipping in truth means to worship God abt His attributes n who He is...
this also means tt without reading the word of God, it's not very possible to really worship in truth...right? :)

spirit refers to our hearts, minds and souls...rmb the verse tt goes "Worship the Lord Your God with all your heart, all your mind and all your soul"?...tt's it!...God is saying worship Him in spirit!...oki...still very chim right?..basically, practically speaking, it means focusing our minds on God n God alone...not thinking abt wat to eat after service, where to go, our piles n piles of never-ending work etc etc...but juz thinking abt God n everything tt He has done for us...:)

hee...actually they r linked...n it all starts from reading God's word n spending quality time n living ur life together w God...
think abt it...if we seldom read the word of God, our knowledge of who God is will always stay at e same level as the last time we actually read the bible...n if we seldom spend time w God n walk through life together w Him, dere'll b so little things to think abt when we try to worship God in truth and in spirit...right right?...:)

sooooooo...let's not juz pay lip service to God in worship...but really worship Him in spirit n in truth, amen? :)

hee...time to read e bible n pray...:)

2008-10-13T00:08:00.002+08:00

shai got to learn how to love pple the way they will feel loved...:)

2008-10-10T19:38:00.002+08:00

hee...today i met up w yuming-zeh n yurong...:)

hee...from the meet-up, i muz really say...GOD, U R SUPER ZAI!...:)
when i heard abt wat they r doing in their church...how they also have youth camp n stuffs, i felt much warmth...oh man...we r all in the big family of God!...we r children of the same Papa of the same house talking the same lingo!...

hee...got to share abt my conversion story again!...hee...think yurong pointed out something tt i din realise...quoting her, "ur life ah...really everything linked to choir de!..."...it's true eh...if not for my choir seniors who were in Hope Church whom i met on my 1st time visit to this church, i won't have stayed in it, deeming it as a church w a style of worship tt's too lively for me...hee...oki...shai muz learn to treasure this talent n gift tt God has given me...it was actually a tool tt linked me to God too...imagine, if i'm not some1 who loves singing, i won't have noticed e lyrics of the song "through it all"...n probably, i won't get to know God dere n den...hee...n i really like this way through which God reached me...hee...n e best thing is...even till now, God is still ever using this song to comfort me in my down times...hee...thank kew God!...YOU ARE AMAZING! :)

look at the lyrics of this song...

Through it all

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

Pre-chorus:
And I look to You
And I wait on You

Chorus:
I'll sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Bridge:
Hallelujah, hallelujah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDg2Fnr6KRE

hope this song speaks to u too! :)

shai's team at ecp! :)

2008-10-10T18:52:00.002+08:00

hee...yest we went ecp to jog n celebrate someone's bday!...hee...it was so fun! :)
lots of funny things happened...

florence led us in a super fast forwarded warm-up...which was really funny how she counted so fast n so irregular...hee...den as she runs, she kept fiddling with her hair, thinking tt it's really messy...hee...aiyo!...florence ah, nobody's gg to look at u la!...quoting winstar: "pple can only c ur eyes n teeth!" :p...

regina stopped really early...think she only ran for like 200m den she buai da han already...hee...but later she told me tt she had blisters on the sole of her feet...tt's y cannot run very fast n very long distance...hee...silly gal...juz tell us n we'll spare u...
n regina is really a big saboter who can come up w super a lot of zhen3 ren2 ji4 hua4...hee...we bought e relighting candles tt always relights even after umpteen times of blowing! (but amazingly, florence actually managed to use her powerful breath to blow them all off!)...n she made florence use her mouth to remove e candles fr the tarts tt were supposed to serve as e cake...hee...thank God for regina!...if not, i think florence's bday celebration will not b this enjoyable!...:)

winstar is really an encouraging brother...when regina was having difficulty pushing herself to run, both florence n i only knew how to say "jiayou regina!"...but he said this, "actually u r doing well, juz keep running...if not will lose the momentum..."...very encouraging right?...hee...n he also very thoughtful...like florence's stomach wasn't feeling very well coz she ate chilli after being super hungry...so winstar cleared away the chilli from the stingray b4 he passed it to florence!...hee...so thoughtful right?...:)

really thank God for the long walk back to the locker where we left our bags n belongings...it was an enjoyable 1 as we talk abt random stuffs...n got to know each other better also!...hee...n thank kew all for being willing to share stuffs...hee...let's go run or badminton or watever (but no water stuffs coz shai can't swim) together again! :)

hee...looking forward to the next time we meet! :)

to my dearest friend...

2008-10-07T23:29:00.003+08:00

joyce mamaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hee...you've been a really great friend!...n i'm really proud to say that i know tt no matter wat, our friendship will still stay strong coz dere's Christ in the center of this friendship! :)

thank kew for always listening to me talk...n always affirming me to let me know wat i've done well in n kind of mark my growth...

jiayou in leading ur new grp!...God is with you...:)

love u! :)

2008-10-06T00:16:00.003+08:00

today God made me realise something...:)

think God has been growing me ever since oasis camp!...hee...in camp, God spoke to me abt purity in heart as a minister...tt as a singer, unless my heart motives are right, God cannot use me to minister to others...so i slowly grow...den even b4 HK LC, God has been telling me abt being faithful with wat i have now...not juz my talents but also the role tt i've been entrusted with now...all along, i tot those were 2 different things...

buttttttttttttttttttttttt..........
today, God taught me to look at e 2 hand-in-hand! :)
if my motives are right, but i haven't been faithful in protecting my voice n developing it...den even if God wants to use me in ministering in a new song, perhaps my voice is not well-equipped enough to carry it out?...
on the other hand, if i have been faithful in my talents n my role, but my motives are wrong...den how can God even use me?...

so...purity n faithfulness both muz co-exist...it's really not easy to do it...but shai is gg to trust tt her big big God will pull her through...:)

2008-10-01T22:49:00.003+08:00

today's children's day!!!...also a public holiday...:)

hee...rayson, jason, walmond, gwen n me went ecp to cycle!...hee...it was fun but scary...think my cg pple really super adventurous!...we even drove alongside cars u know?!...so dangerous!...but exciting to have such an experience...so thank God tt He place me w such pple who r sooooooooo different from me...:)

walmond is fearless!...he goes around bullying pple by cycling really close to them...n he even "pick-pocketed" jason's crumpler bag...n when jason tried to take revenge, walmond juz made him even more "bullied"...rayson is very nice brother...coz he helped me to repair my bike when my gear de chains went loose though it made his hands dirty...hee...so thank kew rayson!...:)...n my dear shepherd has to keep waiting for me coz i turned e wrong way...or i too scared to cycle thru a big bunch of cyclists who r too close in proximity for comfort...hee...thank kew gwen! :)

throughout e cycling, i couldn't stop smiling...hee...it was really heart-warming to c how e guys r relating to each other so well...n how they tried to include e gals in their "playing" n "bullying"...it made me feel like we r 1 cg!...:)

i saw more heart-warming scenes too!...dere was his father n daughter...e daughter was trying to learn how to roller-blade w e father standing behind her n holding her so tt she won't fall...after a while, e father realised tt his daughter wants to go on her own, so he let go n let her blade by herself...n when he saw tt his little gal could blade quite stabily, he smiled!...
hee...doesn't tt sound like God n His precious little gal?...hee...God is always by my side, always ready to hold me when i'm gg to fall...n when i want to go by myself, He lets me have e freedom to do it...when i succeed, He smiles...but when i fall, He picks me up!...thank kew God!...:)

God saved the day again!

2008-09-28T16:39:00.002+08:00

oh mannnnnnnnnnn...God, u r really super zai!!!!...can't imagine life without u!...:)

hee...i juz realised tt my test for ma2213 is not next next monday but on thurs!...which means more time to study!...was still quite worried tt i won't have enough time to study for it when gwen told me tt next wk will have 2 cgs!...but den i decided to trust tt God will surely help me to have enough time to study...so here i am!...God really made a way out!...:)

n today i had a super long cg...e minops went botanic gardens for mass cg...hee...God blessed the weather!...it was sunny but also windy!...gd God!...hee...but tmr i have a test which i'm not even 3/4 done...was juz thinking if i have to go eat dinner w my family, den i will have much less time to study...but...my papa juz told me tt he n my mum gg for a wedding dinner tonight...meannnnnnnnssssssssss...don have to go out! = more time to study!...:)

God 帮我铺好路了!...so shai muz study hard hard!...:)

from here, i know tt it's true tt when we juz trust God, He will surely bless!...n if we do not shortchange e way we serve God even in such times, we will c God's hands moving wonders in our lives! :)

e God of shai is so zai!!! :)

2008-09-24T23:37:00.002+08:00

today regina came my house...hee...i actually gave her e wrong directions to my own house!...n caused her to get lost...hee...den have to take bus here n dere n she doesn't have a bus concession! (so sorry regina!)...but regina was really sweet-spirited...coz she juz kept laughing abt it!...hee...n she gave me a hello kitty sweet n some chewy gummies to keep me awake while studying!...:)

anyway...juz want to say tt regina is so teachable...we met in my house so tt i can help her w her pitching...throughout e whole session, she was juz so eager to learn...hee...though she was really paiseh n scared to sing, she sang anyway...this goes to show her willing spirit to want to learn n improve!...gd regina!...jiayou! :)

hee...i think my team of singers is so cool!...do u know tt florence, winstar n regina actually goes hanging out together after they support sing for 2nd service when xiang n me r in sermon?!...so cool la!...last time everybody will juz go find their grp n come back when e team leader msg them to...hee...yay!...after my exams, i'm gg to get my team to run tog!...hopefully can find a time tt fix everybody!...:)

shai's not very fruitful in her study...but i know God is with me still...coz His peace dwells in my heart...jiayou shai! :)

2008-09-21T22:14:00.002+08:00

hee...it's a late post again...

fri...florence came my house (hee...thank God for her coz she has to travel all e way fr e east)...actually e objective was to teach her to sing parts...like go thru 3 songs n try to teach her to listen out for parts n take note if she's out of tune anot...but coz tt gal has sore throat...soooooooooo...in e end, we talked more than we sing!...hee...but thank God it was a really great time of sharing n fellowship...n thru her sharing, i got to know more things tt i nv c...:)

do u know tt florence is really a blur gal?...she actually ganna tricked by me like 3 times!...can u believe it?...:P

hee...den today got cg...yaoguo shared sth tt i think is really cool coz i've tot of it tt way...

u know how our leaders always encourage us to worship God even when we don feel like doing it...e worship they r referring to is singing songs to God...but actually, even if we broaden our definition of worship to a form of lifestyle, e sentence still holds...

everytime we don feel like doing our best in our studies, we still do it as a form of worship to God...everytime we don feel like being gd spirited, we still do it as a form of worship to God...everytime we don feel like getting out of our comfort zone, we still do it as a form of worship to God...right right right?...

so next time u feel like slacking, rmb tt doing ur best is also worship, so muz worship even if u don feel like it...:)

my God is sooooooooooooooooooooo good! :)

2008-09-18T16:27:00.002+08:00

God saved shai's day again! :)

yest late at night, i suddenly realised tt i have a hw due the next day!...n guess wat?...i was stucked at e 1st qn for super long!...n coz it was so late, all my friends were sleeping already...so it was juz me n God n my empty paper...

the next day, e friend whom i asked for help could only meet me 30min b4 the time due for tt hw to b submitted...4 qns in 30 min!...it'll b a miracle if i can actually make it in time...but no choice la...i troubled another friend too much le...blame it on shai's small circle of friends...hee...but guess wat?...way b4 e time due for e hw came, tt friend whom i troubled too much msged me...n told me,"if u need help w hw, can go my locker...my hw is dere..."...i was so thankful!...God, u r really gd!...coz u sent some1 to save me!...:)

trust shai to b blur...hee...i actually mixed up e timing for my tutorial class!...thank God my friend msged me n though i din feel e vibration when her msg came in, somehow i went n check it 1 min b4 my tutorial started...hee...tt was e last session of tutorial for today...if i missed it, i can't possibly go for another 1!...soooooooooooooooo...shai's really thankful to God!...:)

2008-09-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

hee...this morning i felt like santa claus...gave my friends lao po bing...:)

bumped into my friend outside the LT...den she juz complained to me abt her long long day ahead...hee...thank God i brought extra biscuits...so i gave her e very nice chocolate cookies i bought from HK...n she was so happy to receive it!...yay! :)

it's really blessed to b a blessing to others...:)

afternoon...i went shopping for yaoguo's n jerel's present w jason, peter n jiayi...hee...it was so fun!...peter is so funny...always tempted by food...n jason always try to tempt him...n jason always has funny ideas...hee...somehow e company was really comfortable...thank God for this chance of being able to spend time w them...:)

God i pray tt gwen's stomach flu will b healed...i trust in Your healing powers...in Jesus's name, amen :)

2008-09-12T00:24:00.002+08:00

hee...been neglecting my blog for a while...now i'm back! :)

juz come back from HK LC...think 1 thing i got back from LC is e realisation tt Hope Movement is really very big!...we have pple all over e world who r connected with the same vision!...i had the privilege to support sing for 1 of the sessions...when i opened my eyes during 1 of the free worship times, i saw pple from front to back raising their hands towards the heaven...hee...though half r singaporeans, there r still e other half who weren't from S'pore...it's simply amazng how God can gel pple of different backgrounds together!...shai's privileged to b in this big big big movement for God... :)

hee...think shai's job now is to juz sing for God...lead my team well...n train my singers well!...other things...shai juz has to wait for God to slowly reveal...quote wat jiayi said, "if u r not even faithful with wat u already have, den wat's e use of God giving u more?"...soooooooooooooooo...i really got to b faithful with this talent God has given to me...shall resume my singing lesson soon! :)

hee...this is really late...buttttttttttttttttttt...better late than never!...
SPECIAL THANKS TO THE EAST PPLE WHO WENT TO LC: denise, florence, jeslin, yingjie, meng, yanyu, winstar, alvin, aloysius...thank kew for making me feel at home on my trip back!...thank God for u all! :)

happy things :)

2008-09-01T15:26:00.004+08:00

hee...juz went running w florence!...i can't believe this!...we literarily ran n talk!...din take e timing though...hee...perhaps the good warm-ups helped!...had a great time talking n sharing...florence is a so funny gal...she really made herself comfortable at home...n she hugged e pillow tt me n my sis step on!...n she actually asked...
"ur house got heater anot ah?"...
i said with much sincerity, "don have."...
"means muz bathe with cold water ah?"...
goodness!!!...i was really only kidding...but she actually believed!...florence is even more guilliable den me! :p

sally gal is serving in the shooting ministry in tertiary!!!...took a photo of her n e camera...but shall not post it up coz i promised her not to...hee...but i'm really happy tt she's doing so well over dere!...i'm soooooooooooo proud of u! :)

HK LC coming!...quite excited...but a bit scared also...coz i really don know wat to expect fr e trip!...hee...shall set my objectives soon!...God, i pray tt it'll b a fun time of fellowship n s great time of being ministered by You!...muz speak to me oki?!!...i'm sure You will...:)

2008-08-27T23:19:00.001+08:00

we always say...

u do ur best, God will do the rest...:)

indeed, if u do ur best in the "right" things like studies, God will top up the rest...
u do ur best in serving in a role that pushes u out of ur comfort zone, God will top up the rest...

but...think abt it...
if u do ur best in slacking, God will also top up the rest...
but wat can He top up but the slackness?...
means...if u slack, God will also slack...

not tt God doesn't want to help...but He believes in "you reap what you sow"...

hee...so do u know wat u want to reap?...start sowing the right seeds...n do ur best in the right things...:)

jiayou shai! :)

2008-08-27T13:51:00.003+08:00

juz went for my 1st tutorial for this sem...it's a maths tutorial...n i was supposed to take it alone coz my friends din get e same slot as me...but thank God i saw my friend's friend whom i recognised from lecture...n decided to go talk to her...:)

but guess wat's the 1st thing she said to me?...it's "u make friends w me no use 1...coz i don know how to do all my tutorial qns..."

"it's ok...i don know how to do also...hee...y u say until like i want to make friends so tt i can get help fr u de?..."

"i tot maths pple all very practical 1?..."

oh man...from this, i realise tt despite some who take friendships as a means to get help fr pple, dere r some who yearns for genuine friendships...God, i pray tt u continue sending such pple to me...i want my uni life to b coloured by beautiful genuine friendships...:)

hee...i think i've found 1...hee...we went magabites to eat n drink tea...hee...had a nice chat w her!...funny how we can hit it off so well coz we only knew each other for 1 sem n only took 1 module tog...n e funny thing is...e module onl has lectures n during lectures, we r always sitting 1 friend away from each other...hee...amazing how God places pple in my life...thank kew God...:)

2008-08-24T02:14:00.000+08:00

xiao joyceeeeeeeee...

if u got come, muz tag to prove ur presence! :)

2008-08-20T14:54:00.003+08:00

juz watched e table tennis match between Singapore Yang Zi n Portugese (eh...i can't rmb his name)...it was e 2nd round for both...n e 1 who wins will get into e next round...:)

n Yang Zi won!...:)

table tennis match is the best of 7...was juz wondering...y 7?...odd number so tt dere's no chance of having a draw...but y not 5?...y 7?...
i guess...5 is not long enough to determine the real standard of e sportsman...think abt it...if 1 of e player manages to win 3 rounds straight...den both of them would have played for only 3 rounds...tt might not b enough to stretch the sportsman physically n mentally...so 5 rounds is too little...aiyo...but who is to decide how many rounds is really enough to stretch some1 to his/her limits right?...

fortunately, in life, God knows...
sometimes, we r caught in a difficult situation for a long period of time...n we ask, "y so long?"...hee...muz b because God knows we haven't been stretched enough...n He doesn't want us to stay in our comfort zones...He wants us to grow!...

soooooooo...watever difficult situation u r in now...don worry...juz do ur best to solve it...struggle all u can so tt when God's hands move, it'll b obvious to u...believe tt our Father in heaven has everything planned out...n He knows juz e right time to come to or rescue b4 we break...:)

2008-08-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

"i like it best when i cycle with a good fren at ecp when we spend time at the jetty"...hee...my good friend said this... :)

shai is very blur!...God, help me to get e tutorial slot for ma2108!...hopefully i can take it w any of my lecture mates who's my friend's friends so tt i can build closer friendships w them...:)

i put my trust in my heavenly Father. :)

2008-08-19T10:04:00.003+08:00

listening to the song "indescribable" by Chris Tomlin...

1 line that hit me a lot is "every creature unique in the song that it sings"...
can u imagine a whole big congregation of pple singing their own song to their beloved Creator?...
wat if in the midst of worship, a pre-believer starts singing his own song without realising that he/she is actually singing?...n later finds that his/her being is connected to some1 higher?...

i believe music has the power to reach into the deepest being of a person...
God, please anoint every single one of us in the worship team for JUMP this coming fri!...we want to use our music to touch pple's hearts n to lead them into Your Presence...n most imptly, God, u muz USE ME!...if singing is the only thing i can do well, use it for Your glory!...don pass me by!...

counting down to JUMP!...3 more days...:)

2008-08-18T22:29:00.002+08:00

shai's feeling very blessed!...:)

my thurs lecture from 4-6pm have webcast!...means i won't have to miss tt lecture even if i go HK LC!...thank God!...:)

i made a new friend today!...hee...hopefully we'll have even more things to talk abt in time to come...:)

joyce mama bought me e in-ear kind of ear piece!...hee...n it's really so much louder n clearer!...gd gd gd...for me to train my ears...:)

n i don know why...but i juz so look forward to singing w my team this sat!...hee...come come come...let me boast abt my 2 new singers!...florenceeeeeeee n reginaaaaaaaaa...they r ever so ready to learn!...when i assign them parts, they r juz so eager to learn...mayb they r a bit uncertain n afraid, yet they dare to try...so proud of them!...hee...can't wait for e day when every1 of us can catch our own parts so well...n like we can blend so well w each other n all...:)

aiyoooooooo...shai's so blessed!...thank kew God! :)

2008-08-16T00:51:00.002+08:00

today xuan n i finally met up in school!...hee...sooooooooooo happppppppppppyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!...hee...guess where we hang out at in school?...science bus stop!...hee...not the best place...but it's ok!...sometimes, it's e company tt matters right?...thank God tt i had a break den...n xuan decided to call me after her lecture...a beautiful coincidence planned by God!...hopefully can have more of these...:)

shan met my need n my want...hee...my sing song jellies r spoilt le!...means i got to buy a new pair of sing song comfy n presentable shoes...was still trying to calculate a budget n contemplating how to ask my parents pay for e shoes...while shannnnnnnnnn bought me another pair of white jellies!...she bought me e pearl hairband tt i adore so much!...hee...really feel very loved!!!...thank kew shannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...:)

hee...JUMP pract ended late today...i reached e bus stop at 11.25p.m...hee...n guess wat?...i manage to catch the last bus home!...thank God...this is the 2nd time u save me from buses le!...my God is the best time keeper!...:)

shai's small accomplishment :)

2008-08-15T00:34:00.002+08:00

this is a day's late...but i still want to blog abt it...:)

hee...i went cycling with ameliaaaaaa today at ecp!...hee...i did lots of turns here n dere (means my phobia for turning is removed partially le)...yay!...:)

i saw real fishermen fishing u know?...it's so cool!....they were wearing straw hats n using some cloth to put by the sides of their faces under the straw hats...feels like kampong...i like!...hee...n we saw e small small fishes being caught...those kind that we c in nasi lemak!...so cool!...funny thing is the fishes seemed to be at ease with their fate (or perhaps ignorance is bliss)...they actually din struggle u know?!...if i'm the fish, mayb i'll also b blur blur ba...hee...mayb tt's y God made me a human!...oki oki...i'm crapping...hee...

hee...ameliaaaaa is very nice!...she walked me to e bus stop w 197 so tt i can take to my tuition place...den she had to walk back to her bus stop which was abt 10 mins' walk away...hee...n the sun was scorching!...so thank kew ameliaaaaaaaa!!!...:)

some random thoughts

2008-08-12T11:25:00.003+08:00

In order for strangers to be able to exist in the same space in harmony, there needs to be a basic trust among them....

e.g. students trusting that their new lecturer will prepare his notes n lecture well b4hand n will b qualified enough to impart knowledge relevant to the module...passengers on a train sitting next to each other, trusting tt their "neighbour" will not do anything tt will harm them or intrude their privacy...walking in a crowded shopping centre with the trust tt the stranger next to u will not stretch his hands into ur bag n take away valuables...etc etc...

We all start with a basic trust for each other...after which, any increase in the level of trust will have to b earned...

The strange thing is...God, the King of kings and the Lord of lords, trusts us even wo us earning it...so many times, we fail Him by making the same mistakes over n over again...yet, He still trusts that we will b able to overcome this bad habit one day!...

how can we tell?...

God uses imperfect pple who may fail Him anytime...He entrusts us w His precious things like His church and even taking care of His flock...sometimes, we shirk responsibilities...sometimes, we might even run away n expect others to clear up e mess for us...yet, as long as we go back to God n really want to change, God still trusts us n still continues to use us in ways we will never imagine...

so, r we gg to abuse this unconditional trust from God, or r we gg to ride on this trust to shine for Him?...i guess, u know which will put a smile on His face...:)

2008-08-12T00:47:00.002+08:00

today is e 1st day of school!...hee...

1 of e things i look forward to e most is learning this module called the old n new music of SE Asia...we r gg to learn gamelan in our tutorials...though e breakdown of marks is based on 4 components (means very stressful), i still look forward to it e most!...it's music!...so excited!...1st lecture is on fri!...:)

another thing i look forward to is to meet xuan in school!...hee...it's so cool!!!...we r actually studying in e same school!...though we r at 2 extreme ends, knowing tt xuan is around too makes me feel a whole lot better abt gg school!...hee...xuan!!!...let's meet up in school soon!...:)

today shan came my house also...to do all e ribbons we want to sell...SHAINA is our brand name!...cool right?...shai+erina=shaina...hee...but i seriously think tt making ribbon by sewing is not my forte at all!...do u know tt i spent e entire afternoon trying to sew up a 3 part ribbon...n till now, it's still not done yet?!!!...shan did like so many!...oh man...shai, u muz jiayou oki?...cannot end up everything also shan do...den it won't b shaina but juz erina le...:)

hee...but shan has been very encouraging...eh...at least she din make me feel stupid or wat...hee...think shan is really super talented!...thank God tt though she's so talented, she's willing to spend e time to teach me n to partner w me in this "business"...hee...this sunday will b e 1st time our products will meet e market...hopefully our ribbons will b e new fashion...n pple will come n buy!...:)

looking forward to this new sem...shai is gg to work real hard so tt she can get gd results tt r glorifying to God...so if u r reading this, rmb to ask me abt my school work occasionally oki?...i really got to get a much more God-glorifying CAP!...it's not abt e no...but abt e extent of my hard work!...

all e way!...no reserves!...no excuses! :)

2008-08-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

hee...today i went ameliaaaaaaaa's house to watch shows again...hee...watched dark knight...i seriously don like e ending...how come batman muz b e bad guy?!!!!...n it's not like he's dead n his reputation doesn't matter anymore u know?...he actually has to carry this bad name for e rest of his life n be hated for e rest of his life!!!...it's so unfair!...

the problem is...this sacrifice is not for no cause...it was for e pple...to give them hope tt dere's still gd n righteous pple on earth...aiyo...but y batman juz can't b tt figure whom every1 admires n looks up upon?...nvm...it's not for me to judge wat's right n wat's wrong ba...

hee...let's talk abt sth less confusing n more happy...:)

i was very encouraged by 1 of e punggol sec gals today...hee...can tell tt she really takes ownership of her stall now...she n her team actually stayed back after school to discuss how to savage their stall idea...n they came up w a brilliant plan...very creative n saves them a whole lot of money!...hee...so proud of her la...charmaine, u muz jiayou oki?...i'm sure ur stall will b very popular de...:)

2008-08-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

in the train, it suddenly strucked me tt behind every face in this train is a story to tell...pple become who they r partly because of their story...

perhaps, one is ignorant because of his/her insecurities tt led him/her to pretend to b a know-it-all...
perhaps, one doesn't trust others easily because someone backstabbed him/her b4...
or perhaps, one is so greedy because he/she did not have enough b4...

lots of pple...lots of stories...i really wish i can hear them out one by one n help those who r still haunted by outdated stories to get out of them...esp for e young ones...

giving private tuition is a great option i think...so mayb my tuition centre can have both grps n individual tutoring...hee...but seriously, i need to go teach in a school 1st...so tt i will know e syllabus...God, is this really ur plan?...it keeps coming to me...but it's juz coz i'm very interested in teaching e young ones, isn't it?...or is this interest also from You?...

everybody has a story to tell...some r more open...some r not...i've met some1 who's e hardnut to crack...but shai is not gg to give up...so God, give me wisdom!...:)

2008-08-01T13:18:00.002+08:00

hee...juz read e extract fr e bk "Worship Matters"...

think this paragraph makes a lot of sense...so i shall juz kope it in my blog...:)

SKILLS TO DEVELOP
Our varied skills should function like the frame around a classic painting. If the frame is too bold or extravagant, we'll hardly notice the picture it displays. On the other hand, if the frame is cheap, shabby, or marred, we'll wonder why such a masterpiece is surrounded by junk. The right frame complements the picture in all the right ways, directing our eyes to the brilliance of the artist, not to the frame.

John Piper calls the right balance "undistracting excellence". It's a proficiency that doesn't draw attention to itslf but rather points away from itself.

the way we lead worship, play our instruments, sing n even arrange e songs should b helping pple to worship God more freely n easily...it should never b a self-gratifying thing...neither should it b a performance unto pple, waiting for pple to come n say "hey, i liked ur playing today"...it should only b for e audience of 1...

think all e above is common knowledge to us who r in worship ministry for some time...yet, sometimes it's juz so easy to have e wrong focus...so i guess...self-evaluation is key!...:)

2008-08-01T01:30:00.004+08:00

today, i was reminded of how long it's been since i bought something or gave an encouragement or even advice to some1 le...in e past, it was my cg pple n my sheep...my position pushed me to bless others n to take care of them...but now, it seems like i'm getting too comfortable le...is it?

n guess wat?...as usual, after i was reminded, i received a call fr my friend...she juz got rejected n was crying...so i comforted her...though i was a bit lost for words...but thank God she sounded quite ok when we hung up...:)
then another friend called!...hee...she called to ask me abt bidding...hee...freshie being really nervous abt this new system she's facing...hee...though i'm quite blur, thank God for my friends who always help me by feeding me w info abt how to go abt bidding...so now, i can use wat my friends taught me to help this dear silly friend of mine...i was so happy when she told me, "thank kew dai! now u make me look forward to school!"...yay!...i feel so happy when my friends r happy...n i was of some help! :)

hee...God, u did it again!...u nv fail to make my life seem like a drama...hee...
u know how in literature, dere's this technique called e 引线...e.g e camera shot some1's wallet being left behind accidentally, usu it means tt later she's gg to need her wallet badly...soooooooooooooo...e 引线here is my thoughts (which muz have been inspired by e Holy Spirit)...n wat follows after tt is all e how i found so much joy in blessing pple...

God, i pray tt u'll continue to fan this passion of caring n blessing others continue to burn in me as i continue to grow in u... :)

2008-07-28T10:46:00.003+08:00

a story...

once, dere was a prisoner who has committed an unpardonable crime...so he was thrown into prison...
he wasn't given any food or drink...e prison was dark n damp...his only friends r cockroaches, lizards, ants n watever crawling things u can imagine on e wall...yet he was so hungry, he decided to squash e next cockroach tt crawl pass him...
den 1 day, e king ordered for him to b brought b4 him...at the throne, e king told e prisoner, "i've paid e price for u le...u r free!..."...n best of all, e king continued, "n i've reserved a seat for u in my kingdom...this is e role tt i've specially set for u...u can come n work w me..."

can u imagine how privileged e prisoner muz have felt?...from some1 who needs to squash cockroaches for meals to some1 who is looked upon so highly by e king!...wat a great jump it is!...

similarly...

b4 we come to know God, we r all in chains...bounded by our own insecurities, emotions tt we don know how to handle, seemingly hopeless situations, etc etc...but God came in n said, "i've paid e price for u le...n i've set a place in my kingdom specially for u..."

sooooooooooooooo specialllllllllll...shai is so privileged to b called by e King of Kings n e Lord of Lords!...thank kew God! :)

2008-07-27T08:54:00.002+08:00

yest was a scary yet exciting day for me...hee...muz note down e date 26 july '08...coz this is e day when i did my 1st song presentation ALONE!...

i sang "the real me" by natalie grant...think God is really very gd to me coz this is a song tt really speaks of how i feel towards God...hee...u can find this song on this link...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcWQIsG9Rqw...n here's e lyrics...

The Real Me
Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow

That you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Oh,Cause you see the real me

Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
Oh I just wanna be me
I wanna be me

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Oh,Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

yes!...go ahead n take tt mask off shai!...b comfortable abt who u really r...u have wasted 17 yrs trying to put on a facade, pretending to b e ms.know-it-all...don waste any more time le!...:)

hee...some pple i want to thank for making me feel less scared:

shannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...
thank kew for believing in me tt i can hit tt note for e "see" in e chorus...wo u saying, "i'm sure she can hit it de...juz tt she's not letting it out!...", i think i'll have phobia gg to e chorus...
thank kew for staying backstage w me n praying for me tog w a hug...hee...really helped to calm me down a little...hee...thank kew for knowing how i felt when i sang e song for 1st service...n juz letting me cry all i want so tt i don feel so emotional for e 2nd service n lose control of my voice again...
all in all, thank kew for being dere...:)

joyce mamaaaaaaaaaaaa...
hee...knowing tt u r always dere in e audience to support me really gives me courage to sing...hee...thank kew for cheering for me...ur voice really super loud...i can hear u fr e stage!...
hee...thank kew for always believing tt i can do it de...:)

jiaminnnnnnnnn...
hee...thank kew for wanting to give me a face-to-face prayer on sat b4 my performance...den when i said i was more hungry den nervous, u even wanted to buy food for me...hee...really warmed my heart to know tt u care so much...:)

sally galllllllllllllllllllll...
hee...thank kew for making a trip to youth service to hear me sing...hee...u can b my faithful fan...next time i singing again, u also muz come listen oki?...hee...but this time muz msg me where u sitting so i can look at e right place...hee...so happy to see u in le meridien!!!...u r still e same sally gallllllllllllll...:)

qian jin n gwen...
hee...know tt u all r probably more scared den me when i'm singing on stage...hee...scared i will break down or sth right?...hee...juz want to say...thank kew for believing in me n giving me encouragements n pointers...tt really gave me a lot more courage den i have in me...:)

thank kew ruizhen for helping me w image...hee...i muz have given everybody a shock when i wore my white dress w a white cardigan...hee...shai needs to improve her fashion sense...n shan u muz help me!!! :)

most imptly...............................................
thank kew God...my dear papa...hee...u have been preparing me to sing this song...hee...sneaky sneaky...but thankful u did tt...thank kew for making me a star...n using my voice to touch pple's hearts...hee...though it's very scary...but God, i'm gg to say...use me!...i want to work hand-in-hand w u to build ur kingdom! :)

dear God...
i want to pray for e jc central pple...God i pray tt u'll continue to strengthen them...replace their defeated spirit into a renewed spirit tt has found peace n strength in u...may u soften e land...open up their eyes so tt they can c where e harvest really is...

jiayou nj, cj, rj n ac! 你们可以的！:) :) :)

undeserved

2008-07-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

this morning...i was reminded of how undeserving of God's grace n love i am...
without God, dai xuan won't b shai...a gift...(not being bhb here...it's juz i'm sure e past selfish me will definitely not b a blessing to pple around me)...
without God, dai xuan won't b so much more confident n secure...i'm still a work in progress though...means sometimes, i still get insecure n still belittle myself n all...but God never fails to step in n correct my thinking...
without God, dai xuan won't ever have e courage to talk to so many pple...including strangers on e streets...
without God, dai xuan won't b able to stand on stage to sing to so many pple...
without God, dai xuan won't b able to experience wat it means to have joy in blessing others w wat she has...n also e joy of sharing...

all in all, without God, dai xuan will not b e shai whom u c today...
probably, i'll still b e gal who hides in e corner n blends into e wall, den cry secretly everyday coz she always finds some1 else who is better den her in e things she's gd at or she can't handle e stress n problems in her life etc...

so...THANK KEW GOD!...shai loves God...:)

2008-07-25T01:20:00.002+08:00

hee...went joyce mama's place this morning to spend time together...:)
hee...guess wat we did?...RUN!...
do u know tt joyce mama is so li hai?!!...she kept talking n talking n talking to me while running...yet she still could run longer den me...after running 3km, i already could see stars n my legs started to give way a little le...yet she still can run 3km more!...i'm amazed at her stamina...hee...shai muz b able to run liddat in e future also...:)
den she cooked sphagetti for me!...hee...a bit sour but i really enjoyed it...thank kew joyce mama!...i had a great time!...:)

while i was taking my rest from running...i had this pic...
i want to set up a christian-based tuition centre whereby all e teachers r christians...n everytime b4 we start lesson proper, we'll pray tog as a class...(like how missionary schools always start off e day w devotions)...i believe tt w God's help, all e students will b able to get gd grades...n when this news get around to others, parents will want to send their kids to my tuition centre...n hopefully, e kids will come to believe in God, e person we pray to everyday...
God, will i ever get to do tt?...how do i go abt doing it?...
hee...if it's ur plan, guide me...:)

2008-07-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

went for my 1st vocal lesson w this gal called joleen...
she's e same age as me u know?!...yet she knows so many things abt vocals...she can do scatting, e different types of harmony, make a song her own...she has her own band tt writes christian-valued music...she only needed to listen to me sing e chorus of "i could sing of Your Love forever" n she could tell tt i nv use my diaphragm very much, my breathe control wasn't dere n i don really know where my head voice is...
oh man...tt really makes me wonder...

have i wasted 20 yrs of my life?!!...(hee...don worry...i'm not emo-ing...juz really got a wake-up call kind of feeling)...

if u ask me, wat's e thing u can do e best?...i'll probably say singing...even den, my basics for singing r not dere!...shai muz really work hard n b more aware of wat she's doing w her life...every min every sec muz count for God...:)

juz finish reading e bk "Good Morning, Holy Spirit" by Benny Hinn...here's 1 thing tt strucked me...

Q: How can i truly please God?
A: Don't try!
Q: I don't understand.
A: Young man, it's not your ability. It's His ability in you.
so Benny Hinn concluded...
how can i please God?
by YIELDING!
the Holy Spirit will do the work. It's not my strength; it's His. Otherwise i would boast of my own accomplishments...
so my part...is to juz lay everything b4 God...n follow as e Spirit leads...
so easy yet so hard...but shai wants to do it!
not by might, nor by power, but by the Spirit of God...:)

2008-07-22T16:37:00.004+08:00

my convo w a sec2 gal...

last wk...
she asked me, "wat do u want to b in e future?"
i said, "i want to b a teacher..."
she said, "lame la!...b teacher so low pay!..."
when i asked her wat she wants to b...she said, "i want to b a lawyer..."
i protested, "lame la!...b lawyer so boring!..."
den she said, "better den teacher!...lawyer higher pay n higher status den teacher!"

today...
she said, "can they increase our budget (they were given 100 bucks for each stall in a funfair tt is organised to raise funds for needy students)?...we need abt 50 bucks more..."
i replied, "hmm...y don u n ur team fork out e 50 bucks 1st den u all make sure u earn back enough to get back e 50 bucks?"
she said, "hmm...wat if my stall earn more den e targetted profit?...do we get to keep e extra money?"

i din know wat to say...coz for 1, i seriously don know e rules of e school...plus during my time, when my school had such events, we always juz do our best to raise as much funds as possible...we nv tot of saving e extra profit for ourselves de...so this qn is new...

she continued saying, "y r we doing this when we don get to earn anything?...waste my time..."

i said, "sometimes, e worth of wat we r doing w our time cannot b measured by e amt of money we get...don u want to help e needy students?"
this time, she had nth to say...but after a while, she replied, "but it's still a waste of time..."

is my view on monetary gains too simplistic?
她的童真在哪里？

2008-07-22T00:52:00.002+08:00

many many thoughts running thru my mind as i thought abt my day...

1stly, i want to affirm some pple...:)
hee...felt really happy when florence msged me to tell me she'll b late for wam night coz her dmm ended late...den jency n louis not sure abt timing, they also bothered to clarify so tt they won't miss out on anything...hee...n jon quek!!!...think he's quite worried for his studies...but he still decided to come n learn some things tt will b helpful to his ministry...*pat pat*...:)

2ndly, today i had an unexpected experience...i actually support sing for gwen ALONE!!!...when i realise tt today's worship was juz yaoguo w his guitar plus gwen e worship leader n me e support singer, i was totally stunned!...a bit lost as well...coz i din know whether i should do harmony or juz sing melody...n only got 2 pple singing...means pple can hear me even more clearly!!!...den gwen said this, "anyway u r gg to sing alone soon wat...this is pract..."oh man...she's right!...so i decided tt i shall juz do it w God!...
at first, it really felt weird...i really wasn't used to having e stage so empty...den i was like "shai, wat r u doing?!!!...u r supposed to worship God...so let's focus!"...
God's presence is really so great!...it takes away my attention on myself n juz leads me into worshipping Him...n tt was wat i found myself doing in e end...singing freely to Him!
sat is so near yet so far...Holy Spirit, this is a partnership between u n me...so b sure to b dere oki?...hee...i know You will...:)

lastly, think i got to invest in a pair of in-ear ear phones...my listening cannot make it!!!...really need to improve so tt i can lead my team better!...don want them to lose out!...n don want to cap them too!...so e leader muz grow!...God, You got to help me oki?...i'll try my best de...:)

shai needs to b more observant to her surroundings...:)

thank kew JOYCE MAMAAAAAAAA

2008-07-21T15:11:00.002+08:00

guess wat?...
this blog is created for me by joyce mama...
i din exactly ask her to do this u know?...but she juz felt tt i should blog n share to many abt wat God is doing in my life...so i muz really try to b faithful to my blog...:)
my 1st post...
let me juz affirm this dear dear dear friend of mine...:)
joyce mama is some1 i can count on to b dere for me to rant when i'm feeling upset or to exclaim into her ears when i'm elated...n somehow...often, she'll b e 1 who happen to send a msg when i really needed it...
sooooooooo...i think she's really God's wonderful gift for me!
joyce mamaaaaaaa...thank kew for all tt u've done for me...i believe our friendship will continue to grow n become stronger in God de!
i love you! :)

2008-07-17T11:40:00.001+08:00